Tuesday, January 23, 2007
My grandma passed away this morning. . .
I received my sister's sms when i was in lecture this morning. I was slightly taken aback at first, coz it happened too suddenly. When i read again, i cried. No mood to continue with the lesson anymore.
I remembered i went to visit her before Christmas, she asked me to go home early even though it was only 6plus in the evening. I was barely there for 5 mins. When i asked her how is she feeling, she say she wasnt feeling very well. . . Ya, she looked so skinny and so much weaker than the last time i dropped by her place, somewhere in October. The sight of her lying in her bed and seemed to be in pain, makes my heart ached. During our conversation, she spoke to me in Hokkien and i replied in mandarin, i dunno if she understood wad i was talking abt, but for me, i dun really understand all of the stuff she was saying to me. i can only catch certain points. . . And, that was the last time i saw her. . .
On my way to her place this afternoon, sadness overcome all of the other emotions & my tiredness. . I just couldnt stop the tears from filling my eyes, and i dun like this kind of feeling-the heartache of losing someone you loved. I cant wait for Lucas to be back tml night, at least there is someone i can hold on to and cry my heart out.
I feel so tired now. . . Jus came back from the wake, i guess i need some rest before a long day begin tml.
I received my sister's sms when i was in lecture this morning. I was slightly taken aback at first, coz it happened too suddenly. When i read again, i cried. No mood to continue with the lesson anymore.
I remembered i went to visit her before Christmas, she asked me to go home early even though it was only 6plus in the evening. I was barely there for 5 mins. When i asked her how is she feeling, she say she wasnt feeling very well. . . Ya, she looked so skinny and so much weaker than the last time i dropped by her place, somewhere in October. The sight of her lying in her bed and seemed to be in pain, makes my heart ached. During our conversation, she spoke to me in Hokkien and i replied in mandarin, i dunno if she understood wad i was talking abt, but for me, i dun really understand all of the stuff she was saying to me. i can only catch certain points. . . And, that was the last time i saw her. . .
On my way to her place this afternoon, sadness overcome all of the other emotions & my tiredness. . I just couldnt stop the tears from filling my eyes, and i dun like this kind of feeling-the heartache of losing someone you loved. I cant wait for Lucas to be back tml night, at least there is someone i can hold on to and cry my heart out.
I feel so tired now. . . Jus came back from the wake, i guess i need some rest before a long day begin tml.
what we could have been, 9:55 PM.
